Hey guys,
Just to let you know...I am aware I have not posted in ages. I am aware some of you have been very kind with my writing and have enjoyed reading my posts. I have got all the emails asking me why I have stopped writing and I am sorry I have not replied. I have no excuse except for that I had no answer. But now I do so this post is the reply to those questions on where Ive been, whats happening and whether everything has been ok.
The reason I was not able to write even though I have been through so much in the last four months or so is best said by one of my favourite poets. I have been "doing all the little tricky things it takes to grow up, step by step, into an anxious and unsettling world." I think the worst part of the journey silenced me because I retracted. And I didn't for once, couldn't share. Couldn't, would not, tried to but could not. I froze and Im slowly thawing, understanding my new reality and its mine. Not something I felt anyone would understand.
But as I read back on some of my posts. I can't honestly say I sound like myself. Yes I am the person who has been publishing on this site. But its a part of me that did not understand many things. Now I do and so the part of me that did not understand those things has been left behind.
I feel the need to start anew. A new phase, a new page. I'll leave a link if I can...after all life's a trail. We all need breadcrumbs and occasionally a gingerbread house.  I thought of shutting the page down but that would be like burning an old diary or a photograph album and I don't really want to...as unpleasant or as alien some of these words seem, they came from me and from a reality I felt at the time. And they serve as a reminder of many things, many places and many people.
So thanks everyone who has been reading and left comments and had glimpses into my world. I liked writing it. Every single little word.
Exeunt. | 
